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NOTE: I'm sharing something serious now, but please do not get surprised!!!
This is just about very private thing..
A month ago, I SUDDENLY got dissolved my partnership with my campany. SUDDENLY.
We supposed to make the contract at least until the end of August. However, in the middle of July they said they don't want to work together any more.
The reason is my work record was not enough good as they wanted.
Actually, I've just started my former job from the begging of June. I'd been working just 1 and harf month.
I was working at trading campany and I was in the logistics department. Everything I see and hear were the very first time for me. Even my boss was understanding that and he encouraged me like "I know you're nervous because it's your first time to work in the trading industry, right? Hey don't worry!!! Good luck!!!"
And he also allowed me to take a week off when we had a job interview. So it mage me relaxed because I didn't need to negotiate after I started working!!
The first day of after I came back from Sydney, suddenly he came and told me, "You supposed to work harder and harder, I mean you're not enough to work as our staff yet."
I was kind of shocked because I was trying my best everyday!! I even thought he's so strict because I've been there just a month at that time and he even said before like, "It takes time to get everything, so take times to acquire."!!!!
This happened on Wednesday, before a long weekend.
And on Tuesday, after the long weekend.
My agent came and visited me, and told me that I got dissolved befere the contract has finished.
It has settled on Friday, just 2 days after I got warning from my boss.
The agent said, "If you don't wanna work anymore, you can leave soon after finished today's work. Or the campany allows you to work until this weekend if you want to earn as much as possible because they're worried about your life living. So just tell me when you want to quit."
-I lost my job again....
To tell the truth, I was feeling that someday they'll tell me to quit the job. It doesn't mean that I was being lazy at work. Rather, I was trying my best all the time, however, I was just feeling that "the day"will absolutely come.
I was kind of surprised and sad because I would never thought that the day did come so early!!! And I had been just on fire to work harder and harder!!!
At the same time, I felt frustrated with my boss' thoughts.....he just told me "You should work harder", and then he fired me in two days?!?! Why didn't he give me more time to get over?!?!
Eventually, I decided to work until the end of the week. It was an unexpected happening so I wanted to bring my work to an end by my hands. However my boss was thinking I would leave the campany at that day....;(
Since that Tuesday to Friday, my last day at work were the worst week at my workplace EVER!!!! I couldn't get any new skills although I wanted to learn. I even couldn't get enough work during working hours. Even my team member was producing the atomsphere that like "It's just the waste of time to teach her(me), she suppose to leave very soon. I know it's much faster to finish the job by myself than ask her."
I completely lost my confident about my job skill, and was so sad I couldn't get/make a even a little bit chance to recover myself..
However, I thought I could NEVER get sulks because I got fired, and I should NEVER be complaint about the result. I knew I should always take my job seriously, and should always be nice til come to the end.
And I was strongly feeling that I should have learnt some important lessons through this exerience.
For that, I needed to pray for my spiritual peace.
Then, the last day was coming. I could say to my boss and members with my big smile: "Thank you very much for everything."
Then nealy a month passed away...
I understand how I want to work. I think I have to stop compromising my work plan with my idea and pride.
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